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The life of a student is indeed dreary and difficult…. = = I feel as though my homework is swallowing me up seriously. It’s gotten so extreme that I haven’t been able to watch drama for 4 weeks. O . O oh does anyone know if you need to pee into a cup for diabetes test? I’m rather worried that I might have diabetes!~~ So currently I am taking a break from homework because I really just don’t give a crap now. D See, homework you are soooo helpful. So anyways. How can two people be friends if they’re both stubborn like mules? (or was it donkeys?) Recently, two of my friends, have gotten into a raging fight over texting. Because apparently, her plan does not extend to Victoria, so the texts that they send from one to another cot about 75 cents. So anyways she’s asking for the other person to pay for the texts but he refuses. so yaaaa. the fight has been going on for oh I don’t know, 2 weeks now? And it doesn’t seem to be getting better, if not worse. 

I have been reading Sense and Sensibility, FOR HOMEWORK. ya, I was never really interested in sns, EVER. But the plotline is pretty good, but most of all, once you read this book, your english skills up by like 5 000000000000000000. I’M NOT JOKING. It has really improved my english skills to who knows where. DDD super happy. hehehe. So, how’s life everyone? oh oh anyone know of a good organic beauty brand? I know kahina, rms, ilia, and a bunch of others, but there aren’t a lot in Canada…. = =” So if anyone knows of any DO TELL. SHARING IS CARINGGGG <33333 

(ps, suburgatory is soooo funny – for those that don’t know, suburgatory is a tv show. OH OH BUT NEW GIRL IS THE BESTTTT ZOOEY DESCHANEL FOR THE WIN!!!!!)))) 

now here’s a clip of B1A4′s new song, er 

AND THIS IS SOMETHING MY FRIENDS n i MADE *i helped: 

 and finally, this is the link to a romwe contest, for all you romwe lovers

http://www.facebook.com/Romwe.Fashion/app_11007063052

Math tutor

The most horrible and cruel form of punishment, MATH CLASSES. I am sure that most of you were or are still victims to this crime, but I can assure you, that it will never get better, easier, or funner. (ya that’s a word in my dictionary) Anyways, as I was venti–saying. I have been a victim of this torture for about my entire life, no joke. In my earliest memories I can still conjure up the despair of going to math tutor. It was terrible and probably scarred me for life, as no doubt only math can. But truthfully, I’ve always loved math, I loved solving the answers, and most of all getting praised, lol that was a joke, being praised was a bonus of some sort. Anyways recently, ever since I’ve been introduced to Absolute Value, I’ve been wanting to rip my hair out of my head. It is so frustrating, to the point where I would rather give up ice cream forever (okay, 2 weeks tops), than do it. I mean WHat is the point of doing this? Will learning this in any way benefit my future? I don’t see the benefits of learning this kind of math, I mean, math was originally used to count things, to calculate money, objects, etc. BUT NOW IT”S JUST A BUNCH OF BALONEY that teachers enjoy chucking at students, smirking at each cringe and shudder.  Okay, maybe I was exaggerating, but if you were me, you would totally understand. 

it’s just sucking my energy away, slowly and painfully, while cruelly letting me know that is has, and always will have the upper hand in our battles.

So I guess only one word can help this kind of situation: keep calm and  (@*&%*!(&%#%&$ carry on. 

(sorry for the language ) 

THE DARK

So, i have this issue with the dark, it’s quite funny, it’s just, well, i can’t stand it.  : )) 

The other day, i experienced this dream, where, my pastor wouldn’t let me sleep with my night light. I was wrestling him for the thing, when the bulb suddenly filled up with lava. Screaming in pain, i dropped the night light. 

Horrified by the drastic turn of events, i dashed out of the room like a headless chicken, flapping my arms and screaming. 

In my head i kept chanting, I trust in God I trust in God I trust in MOMMM!! O . O

I had managed to escape into my parents’ bedroom and was shaking my mother violently. My mom just said, “i knew you would come” 

confused and a bit awed by her apparent psychicness, she hands me a lightbulb

my finger is starting to throb, so i rush to the washroom and stick my finger under the freezing water. someone from my school is standing beside me. 

when i lift my fingers out of the water, i discover that there’s a tiny picture of a dragon on the finger, with green multicoloured scales surrounding it, i gasp with wonder. 

my friend merely says, “rip it off”

so i do, and then she says, “it’ll grow back”

so i say ‘SHOTU893ywigtho8(*YU#O*(TWHET” 

 then i woke up : ))) 

WAHH <3

okay so, any of you snoopy? cuz i am..ya i know not a great trait. but anyways recently my inner snoopyiness has been ressurected. I”M SERIOUS. it’s like WOOSH and now i’m just all about snooping. i’m on a mission tho currently. Do you guys hate it when someone says something to someone n leaves you out of it? well i sure as heck hate it. 

so now i’m on a mission to figure out this secret. (don’t worry, i’m not gossiping) i started with a direct attack  i asked directly for an answer from other ppl. lol (that counts right?) but to no avail. so now i’m srsly frontal blasting. when someone won’t tell you something, sometimes the best thing to do is to BUG THE HELL OUTTA THEM. srsly. try it. one of my friends taught me this method, n it totally works. sooner or later the person ur targeti- i mean questioning will give up  and tell you. oh but make sure you don’t bug them over, just bug’em till they get frustrated, not pissed off. (there’s a big difference.) so that’s what i’ve done so far. 

but since the person i’m dealing with is EXTREMELY difficult, his answer dun make me happy. it sucks tho, cuz i can’t tell if this answer to my snooping is a lie or the truth…sniifff this is where i have no comment. sadly i can’t tell at all if an answer is real or just one made up to get rid of me. sighs. life is so harddd~~ 

BTW I LOVEEE LOVEEE LOVEEE (did i mention LOVE???) the hunter boots. GAQHHHH they’re just sooo beaaaaooootiful. no jk. ya : DDD

har har

guhhhhh, sometimes there are times when life throws lemons at you. SRSLY. like watermelon sized lemons that you cannot dodge or turn into lemonade. (why would you drink something that made you unhappy in the first place?) On that note, i never quite understood why ppl say “life is a bowl of cherries”. WHY? why can’t it be an apple, or a pear? why cherries….does that even mean a gude thing or a bad one? everything is so weirrddd = = so anyways. OH OH OMG I HATE THE PPL WHO LEAVE THE TOILET SEAT UP. I went into the washroom and sat down and nearly fell into the toilet….i think that there should be some way to warn people, especially women when the toilet seat is up. so i’m extremely tired now..*yawn. i wonder, how those energetic people get their energy? from the sun? like plants? or maybe they have a secret compartment in their body that creates more enthusiasm.

misunderstandings suck too. 

i hate it when i yell ” hey how you doing?” 

and they think i say ” hell the weather sucks” 

i mean my goodness, how’d they get that out of my sentence???? O . O 

so ya my venting is over for today. 

ps. backstabbing is a bad idea..it never works out well. sniff

fear all consuming

I really really want God, but there’s this all-consuming fear. I don’t know, it’s like i’m standing before the edge of a cliff, and if I step out, well i’ll have to keep falling, and falling. There’s no turning back. am i the only one with this fear? maybe i’m just tricking myself with stupid excuses, but i really really want Him. so I don’t understand what’s with this fear.  is it because of sin? i honestly don’t know. I know the outcome of my decisions, but even that doesn’t comfort me..wth? 

novelties worn off,…boooooo

okay so since my ipod got run over by a car (hope its tires broke) i’ve been using the ancient ANCIENT hand me down… an MP3 player. O .O gasp right?? some of you might be asking what is an MP3 player too. well its basically a ipod that has a black n white screen, oh and you cAn’t scroll through the songs. : ) fun right? i know, it was rough for me to read that too.
so since i’ve been downgraded to this decrepit state. i’ve decided treat it as N adventure of some sort. you know those adventures where the hero comes back all changed n beautiful on he outside? ya thats what it was for me. an adventure.
so now i’ve finally braved through the adventure. and dont worry im still alive; )
and now i hqve this itouch in my hands. mind me its another hand me down. i wonder why younger siblings get all the gude stuff.. anyways i have it now, but the more i look at it, the more it feels like i’m going crosseyed @ @ this is an emergency! it seems that being reduced to a horridly outdated state haz somehow messed up my set of values! i cant seem to feel any sort of happiness and excitement beyond the relief of not having to squint at the screen at night trying to decipher what song it is i am listening to.
but i guess whatever right? maybe i won’t be immune to an ipad : )))
ps there is quite a lot of sarcasm in this post. just saying: D

heheheheeeee

i’m in a happy mood!!~~~ why u ask? erm i think i’m…er. just i am : DDD you get? 

Sometimes being happy is just about being happy.  

but in truth, wislawa szymborska might be the seed of my happiness, among other things 

i (oh, this pink is prettyyy, im trying out different colours, cus well, colours make everything prettier!!! > <) so anyways i think many of us have some sort of em, person you call on….like for me, God, or an Adam. lol. many of you might have adams or God, or maybe Allah, or Buddha. well i was contemplating the many things in the universe (not rlly) , and i came across this thought. 

where would i be without someone to call on? 

you might think i’m crazy. (oh pooh the colour’s changed to black..) but truth be told, think about it srsly. i might end up like the joker in batman. 

OMG i have recently read the batman comic errr the thriller? it was about the Joker and it ended w/ a joke. lol isn’t it punny? haha. srry. anyways it was erm i think that Batman comics are not mere comics, they’re so much scarier and unsettling. mb it was just the creepily and beautifully detailed images. 

er sorry, back to the topic at hand. i think i really would be insane at the moment if i didn’t have God. i guess i’m trying to say. thank you God. for being there always for me. and for others too : ) 

oh but if you’re Buddhist or Muslim, i thank them too, well basically anyone, not necessarily a god of some sort, mb even a prominent person, someone that’s been there forever and ever. just for you >  <

yes, that is wat my revelation was. it’s like that epiphany moment where you realize OMG I”M ALIVE. lol ya. 

oh but i have a question for ppl. i been interested in L’occitane’s purifying red rice toner. 

But issit relly gude? i mean my skin is SUPERRRR SENSITIVE. no jk!@! so if your asian and you have sensitive skin PLS GIMME AN ANSWER!!! PLLLSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanx ) 

straight-forward is the best

gahhh i hate this, why do ppl that are nice not relly all that nice??? it’s so..annoying.. anyways. a friend that i thought was pretty nice and everything totally talked  behind my back accusingly…wthhhhh. im pretty pissed. i mean srsly? you’re not even sure, so why spread your accusations around? AND THE THING IS, this person hates accusations herself. jokes or serious, she hates it and will HATE U if you even remotely sound like you’re accusing her. but she totally accuses everyone. SOBBBB ~> <~ mb i’m being a b*tch for whining, but im just totally frustrated. i mean i went to class and she’s all like Sh*t u…outta nowhere….freaked the pee outta me…happy songsss save meee > <

oh i’ve been listening to gungor beautiful things : DDD

tiredness…must evade.

i bet many of you have experienced pulling an all-nighter right? cuz let’s face it, slacking is fun and addicting rightt???? : DDD s’ok  denial’s the beginning to healing.  (lol, isn’t that extremely profound and deep? if u dun think so, screw u : P ) oh this is totally off topic but i RLLLLLYYY like zooey dechanel (not sure how to spell her last name….) SHE”S SOOOOO PRETTY, but dude i JUst found out that her sister is the woman from BONES. OMGGGG. they’re both so pretty….so not fair ; ___ ;  so ya back to the topic at hand. DANG IT. it’s too hard not to slack so just do it. but er be careful, i mean if u slack tooooo much u might find urself as a hobo. or something..? lol.  for the k pop fan girls out there, slack off happily by watching boyfriend’s newish oldish video, i’ll be there : )) 

oh and this one is zooey deschanel in her charming self with hot stuff joseph gordon levitt  : P